Boxed in

17.06.2018

I have been looking into the “boxed in” aspect ratio’s for film. It seems like alot of old movies used this method. Maybe because that’s what was available at the time.  I do like the effect of the “boxed in” look, it reminds of a film strip or a storyboard!

Maybe this is something I can look into further, after I have finished the MA course. Since I am already on the path of video editing and photoshop, it would make sense.

Also, the fact that I love playing around with old stuff in my work! Be it film, music, photos, drawings, and found objects. Transforming and mixing these things into something new and weird, is really what I loved to do, abit like an alchemist!

Aspect Ratio’s 16:9 – 4:3

15.06.2018

Today I did some research, regarding the aspect ratio’s for 16:9 into 4:3 conversion, for my film which will be played on an old TV monitor. The information was on Adobe, I read through the pages and it has given me an insight into the ratio’s and pixels on 4:3.

When I came across the letterboxing effect pic in Adobe, I actually liked it. It reminded me of a film strip or something old, lol!

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I am not sure if professionally as an artist, I am allowed to consider this an option? Will everyone think that I did a lazy job for my film or come across as unprofessional, in my technical skills? Which to an extent I kinda am. Not sure what to do?

I am new to all of this information, so I am abit slow.

I feel like have been thrown at the deep end with this work! I mentioned yesterday, I am learning (editing in premiere pro and photoshop), as well as making work which is quite stressful for me.

 

Film Editing

14.06.18

The last three days I have been editing and finishing the film for the show. I completed the film twice! It has been a very stressful process. I have been trying to learn and make work at the same time with photoshop and premiere pro.

I spoke to Jonathan and Vic about the film, now I have to do it all again! If I am going to show the film on an old TV monitor, the film has to be made in a 4 by 3 scale in-order to fit the screen without distorting the film.

Not LOOKING FORWARD TO IT AT ALL! : (

Meeting for Exhibition

07.06.18

I have alot to think about and do, regarding my second piece of work for the exhibition. The performance of me skipping as a shadow figure against a wall with sound. Seems difficult to place, ideally this piece of work would be great projected outside against a wall or in a long corridor. I wanted the work separate from my videos to avoid the overlapping of sound and also too much going on in one small space, its not good.

I also like the free wall space next to Eng space which had the windows and like shelves on. This means a plinth, with projector will have to be placed in middlish of the room.

This piece of work is stressing me out alittle and it has not even been made yet! Lol

Collage 2

07.06.18

Today I decided to go to the media lab, as I felt that I was not getting anywhere with the collage cut-outs that I experimented with yesterday. I believe the reason was the scale and the flatness of my laptop screen, also the reflection of my shadow on the screen.

So, I first went into Photoshop with the help of the technician to erase the background of my still images. This also allowed me to control the amount of transparency I wanted from the images, once dropped into my video’s.

I managed to finish all the stills and drop them into my film work. But, I will need to refine everything next week. I am still not sure if I want to make one long video or put the video on three screens.

Collage

6.06.18

I was experimenting with my printable paper cutouts against the colourful zoomed in video’s which I filmed, these were Classical Indian songs (without the sound). I was also adding some glitter and cutting out words from books on critical and political theory, because the words were interesting, they also had depth.

Cutting Perfomance

5.06.18

Today, I was printing out (A4 Paper) some of my performance pictures, these pictures I manipulated in the Drawing Desk app. I did this in order to disguise my face, by putting them as negatives!

I would say I am paying homage to my performance art.

I have also started to experiment around with the printed material, colours, craft material’s, and moving background image. A very similar technique to my Indigo Seedling video, shown at the Interim show last year.

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Destructon

4.06.18

I have been doing another “Art Detox”, hand shredding my performance pictures from the last 8 years! This time I had taken pictures and made videos of me in the act.  Self-destruction through performance art!

Then I started to play around with the torn pictures. It was fun!

Symposium 2 feedback

31.06.18

After showing my symposium 2 video. I tried to explain my motive to everyone, on why I had made a separate space on Instagram, from my main blog = in order to create art without critical judgment. I also spoke about my gripe with art institutes and the underlying theme of racism,  it’s defiantly not a comfortable subject to talk about, to be honest. The reason for this, it is because it does not effect the majority, but the minority, and it does exist, it’s not just in my head!

I also tried to explain that I wanted to disappear from my work completely at some point in my art practice. Because, I felt doing live performance caused problems for me, were my peers and tutors in the past disrespected my boundaries. And then the work, of course, became about my body instead of the artwork itself.

Some people said during the discussion that it seemed sad that I was going to disappear from my work (in the physical sense). I had said, I was in a much more happier place and I had more control over what the viewer could see. Maybe in a sense, I also have a little more control over people’s reaction to my work, as an outcome.  I will be honest, there is a tinge of sadness, not sure why? Maybe because I am saying goodbye to the old me and creating a new chapter for myself and my art practice.

I really cannot shake off the feeling of freedom and the space of exploration I feel, with this new beginning. I believe this was the refinement I was looking for, in my artwork’s, it’s called, control or being the puppet master!

I had mentioned during the discussion and on my last tutorial with Jonathan that I had destroyed all, if not most of my art at the end of term 5. The art that I had destroyed was right from the beginning of my art journey 8 years ago! I explained apart from making contrasting works for Instagram, I had also used the platform to record my old artworks before they were destroyed. This was like keeping the memory’s of my artwork without the heavy load, “yes I was here, and I made this, and it did exist”.  But, now I am free.

Joe mentioned the artist John Baldessari, regarding that destruction is a form of creation. And I would say, it is exactly what I have done with my art. I have wanted to cleanse and purify my practice from the old into the new. And I believe that the degree show for 2018 is a transitional period. Were I will be saying goodbye to the old me and welcoming the new me!

I cried when I came home and I am crying as I write this post.