I have just finished reading Cosmic Dramas by the artist Liliane Lijn for the 2nd time and I have also looked through her book non-stop, for the last 7 months. Lijn’s work has really been a refreshing insight for me, I have felt quite static with art for the last 3 – 4 years. But, Lijn’s work has almost made me think beyond the art work itself with her majestic sculptures, poetary and drawings. Lijn’s work speak’s of a inner world within ourselves, a cosmic self. I feel inspired in a long time to question my own work in a different way, without too much of the negative self-critical thought process ingrained from contemporary art institutes. This will take time for me to process and apply mindfully as I produce my art works, but I have started.
Lijn’s work has inspired me in that, I feel like diverting slightly from the unruly path I had set myself for my art practice. Lijn’s work has definitely awakened that fire within me however small it is for now, its that same fire that I felt when I first started my journey into art, which feels like a good place to be, were I can actually be more productive, finally!
I have completed my 5 drawings! But, I am still yet to decide if I want to add text to them? I am also not sure if I want to show them at the Interim Show and just show the video by itself, incase it is too much. Lots of thinking to do hmmm.
This totally sums me up and what I think of my art practice, he he he!
A recap of last week and this week:
I have been working on a film for the show. I am learning as I go along with editing, self taught. Its a very tricky skill to learn. The film still needs to be alittle bit polished, near the beginning and end, so I might have to go to the media lab for alittle help! Also not sure if I should add a song on top of a song, will it be too much? Just a thought. The song is a South Asian film song that I have manipulated into a different sound, far from the original.
I have also been practicing drawing my matchstick peoples onto cotton/rag paper (made in South Asia) this paper is very expensive and fragile. I have used the paper with oil pastels before. I have decided to use the paper for the show. The reasons for using these papers is that they are made in the area connected to my ancestral roots and also the paper is fragile and looks old, like the past, connected to nostalgical memories and observation from a distance.
I found out that it is impossible to do quick sketches with my regular drawing pen, it is just too faint and also the surface of the paper is not smooth, which means I have to work at a slower and careful pace, this is a new way of working to me, especially were my drawings and text is concerned.
Tutorial with Johnathan suggested artist to look at Marc Lackey.
After the tutorial with Johnathan, I realised……
A note to myself: I NEED TO STOP GETTING IN MY OWN WAY OF PROGRESS
So now my main focus will be making work, every week until the interim show. Fingures crossed!
I have been reading and listening to Carl Jung’s theory of the self again, but much more deeply than before. I feel I can relate to his theory much more than Freud’s or even Nietzsche, but all of them are valid in their own way too. I just think that the self is multi-dimensional internally and externally, anything and everything can affect us not just one thing.
But, I still also believe our “first school” the parents/our home environment plays a huge role in our personalities and how we see ourselves, which I wrote about in my October 2016 posts.
I think we get contaminated by our parents/guardians and early environment due to their own emotions, personalities, egos and also in some cases abuse. I feel we divert from ourselves and our true calling. But like a friend said it cannot be helped, there is no getting away from it. So then….. we spend a lifetime searching for it if we are lucky enough?
I was at CSM MA degree show tonight in support for my friend. The MA show and the BA show were both great, really enjoyed the atmosphere!
Here are some pics from tonight’s event.
I love listening to music and of course, mainly the classic songs from South Asian movies that have a special place in my heart as they are full of nostalgic memories but also most classic South Asian songs were written by poets and very good writers, so they really pull you in.
I was listening to a song from the film Manzil Manzil 1984 (Destination Destination). I cannot explain it completely, I felt like someone was calling out to me from afar like another realm, like a haunting, but it felt good. I was listening to the song the whole weekend, I video recorded the song on my iPhone while watching the film on youtube, while recording I zoomed into the film, creating a pixelated image instead of the lost lovers looking for each other.
Then I decided to upload the recorded video on youtube. I was playing around with the sound and speed. I had changed the song sooo much from the original version! My real intention was to make a layered film with different images (text, drawing, and colours) with the song playing in the background. Now it felt more strange not sure if it was a good thing or a bad thing or why I even did it in the first place?
Filmmaking, editing, or sound are not my areas of expertise at all.
I was looking through my old sketchbooks from college for inspiration. My favorite time doing art, no I really mean it. I loved doing art at foundation level, it was actually fun, now it is just too serious for me.
This was one project that I really enjoyed because even though I was kind of nervous, as I had to go and interview people (very little) regarding Camden Town in the future, like 100-150 years from now. It was really fun. My favorite part was making up my own story and using humor for what I thought the future would be for Camden Town. I noticed I used a puppet to tell my version of the narrative and still dark humor going through my work, basically taking the piss out of serious shit. My conclusion: nothing would really change it would be a new mask with the same old face, especially were humans are concerned!
Here’s to Happy Days!